this is, i think, the first time that i have two classes that I simply cannot get myself to like. i think i've proven that i never wanted (or should) go into computer science. these two courses are... good for me, which is why i'm taking them. and using the program, well, tt's fine and i do enjoy it. i just hate all the comp science bits tt goes behind it, like data storage methods, different databases and DBMS, and the millions of other weird stuff like topological overlays and what-have-yous.

yeah, it deals with geog data, but it so is NOT geographical. learning abt GIS is not about space and time - it's about how to deal with data that is about space and time. it's... different, and i don't enjoy it. that it is a useful skill does not negate the fact that it's boring like crap.

enough of a rant. i basically trawled through 5 articles that made no sense to me whatsoever, and was filled with all sorts of weird equations about spatial analysis errors and other assorted things. nothing really was understood, therefore nothing went into my brain. haha.

i know every sem i quake in fear that i won't get my As. but this sem, my motivation seems to arise more from keeping my GPA, rather than doing well in my class. i know it seems almost the same, but it really is different. 'i love the subject, therefore i want to do well' vs 'i just want the grades, screw the class'. yeah. think tt sums it.

and i guess that's dangerous. because it really shouldn't be about the numbers, but about what i get out of the class in terms of learning. i want to want my A, not just the 4.0 that goes with it. and i want to be motivated and enthusiastic about these two classes.

ah well. maybe if i bury my head some more in GIS sand, it'll actually start seeping into the depths of my brain for me to regurgitate out on tuesday. blehhh.