i'm not the kind of person tt keeps in touch with my friends. that much, i acknowledge. countless times i have felt that i have too many friends (haha.), too many that i don't have enough time or energy for all of them. but the fact is, i can't.

so going away for 3 years is good, in that, well.. it provides a convenient excuse for my inability/laziness in keeping contact :)

but at the same time, it feels like i'm burning bridges. i know i'm drifting from so many of them. my ny classmates, my jc classmates, the fencing peeps, church, su... even pple from madison. and for some, i really feel bad. i could have done more. i could have been more. but i wasn't there for them.

and for some, it's too late in a way. it's that awkward phase, that gap that cannot be bridged anymore.

but for others, i'm glad that they are always there for me. i'm glad that they chase me and keep that friendship going. (note: si hui tan, even though your next couple of years will be thousands of miles away from me, you BETTER not forget me. else i'll hunt you down...)

but at the end of the day, considering how happy i am in my house alone... hmmmmm haha