deadlines are crazy, but i honestly cannot get myself to be motivated. perhaps i need the stress of a looming deadline 12 hours away to push me. but i think the reason for my lackluster attitude is not because of the lack of pressure, but more of how sick i am with all these stuff i'm doing. arcgis has been incredibly buggy - enough for me to puke blood. error messages, crashes and system hang-ups essentially characterise the large part of the time spent on it, and it seems like more than half of the time, i'm troubleshooting, rather than doing analysis/map-making. irritates me no end.

and econ geog... sigh. yeah it's fun learning it. i love tt class. i just don't like testing. any form of it. including take home exams of two essays each of 1500 words. as in, a limit of 1500 words. ARGHHH. i hate maximum limits - i know it's good for me because it makes me tighten up my writing and all that, but it's so restrictive and pesky. i hate having to edit and edit and edit simply to shorten my essays, just cos it means that i can't write all that i want to =(

maybe i'm just one of those kiasu kids who feels that i have to write a mountain-load of stuff to express a simple concept. which would explain why my gis exam felt more like 4 pages worth of essay-writing, rather than 8 questions of ... i dunno what u call it. but it wasn't supposed to be essay-like. don't ask me how i managed to write till my hand cramped. right.

anyhow. the whole thesis thing is a pain in the neck. i know i need to get to it. i feel like simply trashing the whole thing right now. arghhhh.

ah well. persevere and soldier on eh? sian. haha this has to be my most unmotivated semester in my 2.5 years of college life. i'll blame it on senioritis, the condition of being a senior after slogging your guts out for 2 years and feeling an intense need to slack the remaining year (just cos almost all my requirements are done).

ok. back to walmartization and a discussion of whether it is a template for the 21-st century post-fordist economy - the reach of this huge retail colossus. and back to the urban entrepreneurial model of david harvey.

note to self: cut back on the caffeine. almost feels like the coffee's burning a hole in the stomach lining right now hahaha oops. maybe, just maybe, i should go out and play in the HUGE AMOUNTS OF SNOW THAT IS FALLING OUT OF THE SKY AGAIN.

speaking of which, as of 6pm today, the total snowfall for this month alone is abt 24 inches. which is really quite high for this month, esp since we're only at the middle of the mth. =/ but it's pretty, so i'll take my optimism wherever i can - pretty snow! :)

so here's to the sunrise at 7.23pm and sunset at 4.23pm. 9-hour days and plenty of snow ... ah wisconsin.