one down, many more to go.
i'm not looking forward to next week, not looking forward to the datelines, not looking forward to the stress.
i am however, looking forward to the christmas eve's eve's dinner. at least tt's before pple start flying off.

perhaps for me, cooking's a small stress reliever... a time when u concentrate on the food and on the smells and various things that goes in. each dish is an experience of it's own - i dun cook pretty looking stuff or mouth-wateringly delicious delicacies. but i cook enough to eat, and enough to enjoy.

it's relaxing - there's no pressure (ok no real pressure, unless u have 3 other hungry mouths to feed as well... haha) in a way, not like exams and papers and projects. there's only the weight of your own approval or disapproval, and i think i go easy on my cooking. at least way easier than other things. and tt in itself, makes it so enjoyable.

the last few days though, everything's been watery and bland. guess my heart hasn't really been in it - way more things on my mind at this point. but yeah it's my stress-relieving activity, a time when u forget work and pressures.

the exam's over, and tt's a huge relief. and suddenly i juz feel like collapsing in one corner and crying. just cos the exam's over. but i can't... not when there's so many more projects and papers and stuff due. like a rubber band stretched out, i just want to be released and fly out. and away. and the whole weight of grades on my heart.

sigh, what would college life be without e stress of deadlines and grades?

but through it all, i know that i'm not working for an A or for good grades. i'm working for You. i just have to keep remembering that.

i'll be ok. i know i will be. especially when I've got Him on my side =) but for now, i just want to pout a bit, stamp my foot, throw a tantrum and act like a kid. instead, i'll finish up the project that's due tmr. ahhh.