so many things have been swirling around in this little mind. things of the past, things of the future. dreams from time long gone and dreams of a future that may never materialise.

i feel the ebb and flow, the crests and the valleys.

got to shake off the fog over my brain, the shadows overhead.

one of the questions that i've been ruminating over this last 2 days is the question of what i would do if i had the time on my hands. i mean, if i could possibly leave at 8pm every night, what would i do?

it's a question that befuddles and dumbfounds me, because... i love the after-office hours in office - the quiet, the serenity, the peace of it all. it's probably the only time i get my alone-space, a time by myself and for myself, with my own privacy. and without this, i would surely not be able to withstand all of it.

perhaps this has been the catalyst for the swirls of thoughts recently (strangely, this brings to mind the recipe of swirling vermicelli and frying it). it has definitely been a catalyst for propelling me back to the days when time was my own, and freedom was as vast as the sky above me (remember, no high rise buildings within 10 miles, i think, of the capitol :)...

my soul needs a holiday... a quiet one, alone and far away from everyone and everything. i need my solitude again. unfortunately, i doubt i can go on a 2-wk getaway like last year. guess i just have to make do with the moments i can steal, unsatisfying as it may be.

but the Lover of my Soul will sustain me, no?