dec would be less busy. or so i thought.

sigh. oh wells. what can i say?

still recovering from that severe bout of flu. piggie flu maybe? shrug if it was, then it was pretty mild. my last flu attack in feb 08 definitely trumps all my other flu bouts, so no biggie. just that more than a week later, i know i'm still not up to full speed yet.

supa camp was... interesting. so many things to process, so many experiences and lessons to learn, but no time to reflect upon them. makes me realise how inadequate my skills are in handling children, especially children with problems. who do you deal with an adhd kid? how do you reach out to the hurting? how do you love them in a way that shows them it is unconditional, but yet, still maintains that discipline? it's always a fine balance between being 'nice and good' and maintaining discipline and respect... and i think i have yet to master that.

and how my heart aches for them. could i have done so much more? could i have been so much more?

at the end of the day, perhaps my role was, and is, to simply commit them in prayer to the one who loves them more than i ever could.

and so, i'm still waiting. yes? no? which direction? still waiting for the cloud to lift. and only then, will i go.
Lord, bridle my impatience, rein me in. may i go only where You show.