i need a reason to stay. a reason that is more than simply because it is where i've grown up in, or because it's 'comfortable'.

but i also need a reason to go, and a reason that is more than because i don't know if i shld stay.

and while I wait for God to show, to lead and to give me the reasons, I'm in limbo.

right now. status quo. neither here nor there.

and there's the fear of entrenchment. that what if God says, 'go' and by that time, i'm just so entrenched, just so comfortable that I can't just go?

neither here nor there. i know i have to battle that. i know that it is inevitable, i know it's all part and parcel of coming back and it's all a matter of how much i want to do what i need to do to again sink roots in.

but what if that isn't what i'm supposed to do?

Ah Lord God. Show Yourself.

I need the reasons.